Guys, thank you for every moments that we shared. Thank you for the wonderful things you've shown to me. Thank you for the love, trust, and hope you made me feel.
I know that i hurt almost everyone of you with everything that I do. Eventhough it's not my intention, you perceived and believed that it is. I know you just don't know me well and it happens that you are not into it.
I'm sorry.
Yes, I've been too insensitive....................... but looking carefully on the situation, we could think that you have your part too. Yes, i mean I've been too insensitive with everything that i do or say while you've been too sensitive for every consequences that occur. I'm not saying na kayo na nga ang naagrabiyado kayo pa ang may kasalanan. It's just that maybe 90% mine, 10% yours.
I'm sorry if i can't tell all these to you in person because ONLY IN THIS BLOG I CAN SHOW AND EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS AND MY FEELINGS and I'm so shy with my self because i know in the first place I'm wrong. I hope you'll consider it.
The HAMBOG issue. I admit that I'm hambog. Maybe if someone is asked what would be the worst attitude of mine, it would be KABORATAN. Did I get it right? I think so. Everybody in the class know that I am what they called BORAT except me. In the first place, I thought its just an artificial character created by a group in the class. All the time, the class have been laughing to these assumed-of-mine artificial character BORAT. It had been famous to the campus for I heard them always talking about this ( in fact even 1-A students know it ) and I just laugh and laugh. Yes, I just laugh and laugh.
In fact, I've been a promoter of BORAT too. Would you believe it?
It's true, I've been joking my classmates, friends, dormmates and everyone around me about BORAT not knowing the fact that I'M BORAT. Wow, what a nice situation of mine. I've been so stupid. And they just laugh and laugh and laugh. They are laughing on myself and me too, I'm laughing on my stupid self. It hurts me but I learn to supress it while I'm on the way on discovering all these. I know some friends of mine knows about it and I think they just wanted not to tell these because they know it would hurt me and they don't want these to happen. THANKS TO THEM.
Well, thank you also to the BORAT group. For because of them, I've realized all my mistakes and here trying to fulfill the number 1 in my new year's list--that is to be humble--. Thank you that for all those time you've been intimidating me for it gave colors to my life.
I'm not BLIND. I have been observing since the first day of this month and learned a lot. If I am with them, they would include in their conversation BORAT. I just laugh having them not knowing the fact that I'm let's say nakikiramdam....... Napaka plastic ko nman ata, nkikitawa ako sa kanila while iniimbestigahan ko sila.
BUT IT HURTS. It really hurts laughing on myself. I felt on that particular moment that everyone hates me and so mean to me.
This week, based on my observation, I can conclude that I'm BORAT through these:
- the report in management..... akala nila hindi ko pansin sa dalawang meetings
- their responses to my approaches
- the way they talk to me
- sa lahat ng bagay
- when I recite in front of the class
- this afternoon after the review
- the omnipresence of Borat to them
I'm not sure but I could say that possibly they are BACK FIGHTING me. I hope guys when you hate someone, tell them. DON'T BE PLASTIC! please lang kasi mas masakit eh. Sorry kung naoffend k man.
The reason behind why I kept on telling things narcissistically is that it's normal on me. I don't know that I'm already irritating somebody. I'M SORRY, I'm not perfect, tao lang po ako. Would you recall our topic in management about organizations? It says there that each of us has individual differences and that is our nature.
If I'm going too unconscious, then tell me.......
MEET BORAT
THIS IS ME. PROUD TO HAVE IT!
(Borat Sagdiyev is a fictional Kazakhstani journalist portrayed by British comedian sacha Baron Cohen. He reveiled the biases made by the Americans on their influences to the world through his taboo sociocultural viewpoints.)
My posts in this blog are telling the the things I want everyone to feel. I want you to be happy that I included you in my life. I joked yet other people misinterpret it.
BLOGS could be an online diary.... It is your means in sharing and expressing your feelings and thoughts.
I'm sorry if I've said something wrong... It's just that I wrote this on times that I care nothing and so emotional.... ganito lang talaga ako....., MAYABANG.
I like you to impose comments on this work. Thank you for spending reading on this stupid blog.
